..Bella Thorne. I already said I want her to have the good relationships. I see you're doing it as a program. She is making us look bad, tho. Like, she acts funny about me being in trouble according to others. For her, she just isn't supposed to be mean. It is not good and looks bad. I realize you think maybe I'm picking on you for having her be that way. Well, maybe that is not a necessary/essential element to the point I'm proving. Supposedly, she won't listen. However, .. I forget. I don't know exactly what you want her to do. It's kinda fun. I just heard a complaint that I think she's not really gonna meet people and I am. That's pretty much the point you've tried to claim. If Bella can meet people, why is it so hard to get picked by a casting agency? I mean, why just Bella? I didn't say she can't do it and be #1. Is it cuz she's more attractive to you? I think she's really cute, but she's "up there" and I can't imagine being her friend cuz she's "too good for me." Meanwhile, back at the ranch, we meet people who aren't as famous and she should be able to meet them, too. It's true, they send me messages every day about Bella being better. It really hurts me cuz I love some poeple and sometimes they are constantly acting like there is not room for me because I'm bad and Bella -instead- is a punishment, like rather than Bella -also-. I keep feeling that that's the game, and if only we knew who all or how it got started. I go on in life, and it's just pushin more and more for Bella and less and less for me, when I haven't met anybody in real life. There are other people pushing at me not to have the relationships I have. The funny thing is they are just pretending in a way to punish me, and then I think they're being mean.. then you find they lied about wanting to meet them that they didn't have problems with others meeting them even.
So, I hope Bella is doing well and I pray that things keep going better and better for her. She is a sweet girl, and I love her so much! :) About involvement in what's going on in my life.. I did a lot of thinking here, but I guess more will come after I take this step.